As I opened the door, the cold winter air swept in, the warm sunlight rushed through the entry way, and my eyes took in the early winter scenery. The suburban house rooftops decorated with lights, had been covered with frost, and the once green yards, with frozen condensation from the previous nights chilling winter air. As I walked to my car, I purposefully stepped on my lawn, just to make the frozen grass crunch under my feet, and as I turned back to look at my grass footprints, a smug satisfied smile appeared on my face. Content with the comical destruction, I turned around and continued walking to my car, entered it and turned it on. I blasted the heater and sat there; sipping my coffee while I waited for the car to warm up and the windows to defrost. Finally, I could see through the windows and the car a comfortable temp. So I put on my seatbelt, pressed lightly on the accelerator, and drove away from my frosty suburban neighborhood to face the rest of the brisk winter day.

Finding the time
to fix my mind
and set things into motion

working on life
fighting through strife
while things fall into motion

changing the face
starting the race
and now im in the motion

I look back and i dont admire
but i cant change time and stop the fire
all those things ive said make me such a liar
But im stuck here like a flat tire

Still confused and yeah

tormented with thoughts
that i can not escape
memories best forgotten
but are always there and never going away
ideas that should be suppressed
but continue going through my mind
dreams of things impossible
they need to die away
but all these thoughts memories ideas and dreams
keep on haunting me every day
and i wish i new how to keep them at bay
how to push them far away

For the last month, iv been a total idiot. Iv been doing a lot of stupid stuff. Stuff that i know better than to do, but i do it anyways. I need to take a look at myself.

rain keeps falling
and i keep walking
the fog keeps creeping up
and i keep walking
the shadows creep up
and i keep walking
the last light turns off
and i stop walking
i look around
and i no longer know where to go
but then a light turns on
and i keep walking