Still confused and yeah

tormented with thoughts
that i can not escape
memories best forgotten
but are always there and never going away
ideas that should be suppressed
but continue going through my mind
dreams of things impossible
they need to die away
but all these thoughts memories ideas and dreams
keep on haunting me every day
and i wish i new how to keep them at bay
how to push them far away

For the last month, iv been a total idiot. Iv been doing a lot of stupid stuff. Stuff that i know better than to do, but i do it anyways. I need to take a look at myself.

rain keeps falling
and i keep walking
the fog keeps creeping up
and i keep walking
the shadows creep up
and i keep walking
the last light turns off
and i stop walking
i look around
and i no longer know where to go
but then a light turns on
and i keep walking

Life: Is a challenge. Its something each of us has to endure. Its amazing and beautiful; Fun, happy, joyful, intense, awesome, powerful, loving, and God filled. Its sad, tiring, hard, painful, and insane. Its so many emotions and feelings that the list would be infinite. Theres so many things we can all say about life. So many opinions. Even my view is pretty long. But if i could describe life in one simple sentence, it would be this: Its worth living.

Every time i see a mention my heart drops my eyes blur and my mind races with confusion...

If you focus on everything that could go wrong, things that did go wrong, or the negative in the world, You will fail to see the wonderful things that go on in your life. And even when i know this, its still so hard to open my eyes. So hard to listen. So hard to really feel.

Wow. School sucks, lifes confusing and im still tired. Seems nothing has changed since the begining of last year.

Hey guys!
summers been great! Washington was awsome even though it was a blazing one hundred and four degrees=) I cant wait to see all you guys again. Yeah School may suck but with you guys its a hell of alot more fun=). And yea=).

Three day weekend

Hello. So this weekend was a three day weekend. Guess what i did for most of it. My STUPID PROJECT!!! ohh well lol. my weekend was still fun. On saturday i went to a family friend bday party. Sunday a bunch of project work and today i went to my friend Logans to swim. then after i bought an ipod shuffle. I would have bought a nano or touch but i figure that it would be broken in a few months. So a got a little one istead lol. so thats my weekend and yea=P

Short school day

Yay.Finaly a small break in all the stressfull school stuff. Today was relaxing and fun. I went out to lunch with Meaghan and I had a great time. She wouldnt let me pay though and that was a little annoying but ohh well. she would have been upset if i did pay. I got her B-day gift today lol and she has no clue as to what it is lol. I hope she likes it cuz if i mess up on the first bday gift i get her, then that would b bad. So yeah. thats my day. bye=P

You know i havent posted latly cuz i never post anything optemistic. My blog seems to be filled with doom and gloom. Today ill post something optimistic. My Life is good. Yeah my grades suck but im working on them and theyll get were they need to be. I have amazing friends. I have my faith. I have God. I have my Family. I even have this wonderful girl Meaghan. All that crap that iv posted before only shows one side of me and hopefully this post shows a glimpse of my other side. So there my life is good. And yea...=)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hgPpcIzB81Y

Ok Wow F!@#. this week is so damn packed i want it to end. so tommarw i have a math test not so bad. then u add track and a choir performance and its packed.(i dnt no when im gonna do hw)
On wednesday i have another choir thing and then i have to go towork. then on friday i have a spanish test and then a track meet. Im !@#$%^& stressed and life sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOW i am tired. lol but thats nothing new. Life has been getting better for the most part and i guess im happy. just postin cuz u guys want me to lol. and yah :)

ITs 2 in the morning and im bored as hell. Sleeps fun but wtf i can live without lol.
The last few weeks have been awsome/weird/diffrent and a bunch of other stuff lol. Ugh. track meets suck. way to much pressure. I have one on saturday and thats not gonna be fun cuz i have to go to work afterward. Luckly after that there isnt one for a while. lol and yah =)

Shit
im still a fuck up

Alrite. havnt posted in a long long time. alot of shit has happend since then lol. But things are better then they were. ya